As a survivor (and not a victim) of s.e.x. abuse in the childhood There are many missing parts inside ourselves As much as we do our best to be the best we can be, slowly, slowly those missing parts will be revealed to us and when we are ready to see those missing parts, one by one we can go on on our Healing Journey towards hapiness and Joy, I mean it!
Deep inside of you there is a hugh knowledge and wisdom and inside that wise and conscience part of yourself you have the opportunity to ask for what is missing in you, you can ask yourself before going to sleep as a conscience request to your subconscious mind:
Say out loud: This is a direct order to my subconscious mind. thank you for listening and acting on my order, I want answer for this question of mine: what program Im missing, what program am I missing in order to be more happy and live a happier life. Im now open to receive an answer, thank you, so be it.